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  •  "OMG VACATION" (13:31)


    No spring break, no break before I go to work term.. So i figured the only time to take a break was now... Easter weekend, since we have friday, and since the school is a government thingy thing... monday off too.  =D  So yea, now that i have a bit of time.. it be time for... ROAD TRIP~~   =D


    Imma go visit Kai, with Greg.  WE should be leaving soon, but.. yanno, he's not answerin his phone.  XP  I wonder where he is, cuz i wanna go now~  XD  Meh.  Here's something fun for people to do while im' gone to the states (Minneapolis to be more specific)


    (Stolen from Jared's LJ, which I dont read, but he showed this thing to me an one dood in our class at school.)


    Dear Kat,


    You have a cute _______ .


    You make me want to _______.


    You should _______.


    Someday I will ask you _______.


    When I first met you I _______.


    You + Me = _______.


    If I saw you now I'd _______.


    I would build _______ just for you.


    I would get your name tattooed on _______.


    If I could sing you any song it would be _______.


    We could _______ under the stars.


    Something I would like to tell you but am afraid to tell you in person is _______.


    My love for you is like _______.


    Love,
    _______


    (P.S. _______.)


    There.  Something brainless and mildly entertaining to pass a few minutes.  Me and Mark (dood from class) filled them out for jared and for each other.. it was rather entertaining to say the least.  XD  There was a buncha stuff about vomit and ...something that i forget the word for.  (I remember now.. it was defecate.  XD)  Was kinda funny tho.  =X


    So yeah.  Happy vacation to me and greg~  now.. .GREG ANSWER YOUR PHONE!!!  O_o

  •  "I should be more selfish this time around, perhaps.." (10:59)


    Hmm.. Just debating a few things. I've never really been able to be 'happy' in a relationship because of a few things.  I mean, when it comes to the person that I'm actually in the relationship with, they prolly figure im just being stupid an selfish because they're bitter i broke up with them.  But i suppose if im not happy with them, there's really no point in carrying it on any longer, right?  =X  Itd be stupid and it would be bad for both parties involved, not just me.  I think.  It wasnt' entirely anyone's fault it didnt work out, it was a bit of things from both sides.  I won't go into detail on every single person, but if you really wana kno then ask me.  it's not really all that important now tho, and, you should have a vague idea anyway.


    Some of the reasons that some of the things didnt work out was because.. well we all know that i get alot of attention from alot of guys on a regular basis.  Not all of them wanna go out with me, but im not gonna say that none of them do.  I've had guys tell me they love me and ive even been asked about marraige three times or so (im totally not kidding).  since a good portion of the time, these people are my friends, and i can see that i make them happy, and if i got a bf, that they'd be upset, i worry about too much needless things that i shouldnt.  So~ this is where i decide that maybe, i should be a bit more selfish. 


    My friends should be happy for me if i finally find someone that makes me happy, and that i want to be with.  I understand, from what ive been told from Clud, that seeing someone you love with someone else is a really hard thing to watch, but, as long as the person they're with makes them happy, it's not so bad.  (I love my little oniisan for being understanding and mature when it really matters  <3) 


    I also dont think it fair if anyone wants to say anything about me, in comparing my current goings on with things that i've said/done in the past.  When i say things like "i never wanna get in another relationship"  or "love is stupid and it doesnt exist" obviously it's because, at the time, i was hurt, or bitter.  =X  People always say things like that when something bad happens.  I can quote Jon now, in what he said after everything, when I said i'd never love anyone again, he told me that I wouldn't have a choice, because eventually it would just happen without me being able to do anything about it.  XD  Yeah, maybe.  But for the longest time ever, i really thought I'd never feel it again because no matter what i did or who i was with, i never felt anything more than a mere "crush" or short lived very strong liking for the person, which wore off eventually.  So i was told "maybe they just weren't the right person for you."  So true.


    So~ yeah i dunno.  I can't see too many people gettin upset or depressed if i got a bf, but, i know there will be some, and.. Well, i dont want to apoligize, but i feel like i should.  because i hate the feeling that other people arent' as happy as me. when something good happens for me, and im happy, and i see my friends having a hard time or being upset, it makes me feel guilty that good things are happening for me and not for them.  =(   But on top of that, there are some people that need to learn to let go and move on, because trying to force themselves on me has only made me less want to be with them.  (And dont assume you're included in this group... There's actually only one person in this group at the moment... And chances are, if you think it's you, its probably not. Unless your (real) name starts with a C.. and ends with a D.. and only has four letters. =D )


    I'd also like to thank Jenn *tons an tons an tons* for being there for me an tryin to give me advice an stuff.  =3


    So, for now, I'm not quite sure what's gonna happen.  But if and when something does, i'd greatly appreciate it if i could get support rather than bitterness or depressed people.  >_<  Please don't kill my future bf, and.. uh... Dont keep tryin to hug me or whatever when i make it pretty clear i dont want to.  Doesn't mean friendly hugs aren't welcome, but, its not like im gonna cuddle or anything if i have a bf, i mean, i do have morals and stuff..  If i wouldn't like it for him to do something, then what gives me the right to do it? 


    An.. yeah, i suppose that's all for now.  I just needed to get most of that off my mind for now.  XP

  •  "ROFLNOOBFAGLOL" (15:08)


    Haha, the oldest screenshot i have on my RO file.  =P It's my super lame acolyte Lunaki, when she first started out.  XD


    Im sooooo boooored.... Class is boring beyond all reason.  O_o  I have to think up a third way to change a recipe (i chose coleslaw) to make it low fat and healthier.  I figured out two ways... but i cant find a third.  >_>  DIEEEEEEEEEE~  Stupid homework..  >.>


    What to do... >_<  Bah.  Stupid Jared trying to sabotage my new computer~!  O_O  Graeme's strange pokey thing.. Clipped on my monitor.. falling onto my keyboard and DENTING IT!  nuuuU~   I jsut got a new harddrive, ive had two crash on me..  Stupid computers hate me enough as it is, i dont think i need help from outside influences.  >.<


    Let's see.......  *thinks*  .........  *starts thinking about stuff to think about*  .....  *starts thinking about thinking*..  hmm.. that's an interesting concept.  You think about thinking stuff to think about.  XD


    Let's see... Well.  Ive sent a package out to England for my good friend Lisa, (FINALLY)  I hope she likes it.  =3   I shall be sending Clud his long awaited package soon too, since i made cookies in class today... ZOMGG~~~  I just thought up something to do!!   *grabs picture she drew for clud*  I CAN TOUCH THIS UP!  =D


    *starts fixing up drawing*


    Damn... I have no pencil crayons...  >.>;;  THat was short lived.  Fortunately, I can do it when i get home.  =D  Then i must ask greg to mail it for me~  ^_^;  I'll pay him in cookies and cakes that i made~  >=D


    zomg i just realized something cool.  This weekend my mom is going out of town. >=D  Mwahaha..  ^.^


    Back to being bored.....  >_<;;


    Let's see.. What to say/do/talk about.  I don't even feel like getting very in depth with anything, sadly.  O_o


    Hmm...  I need a vacation.  >.>

  •  "ZOMG it's a Kitty~" (1:13)


    Entry time~  XD  Not gonna be much said, just some fun pictures and stuff.  I think it's also time for my monthy RO update, so I'll do that at the end.  =3


    Aside from the usual, not much has been hapening.  But it's been great.  XD  Me an my sisters were playng RO together, which is awesome~  People may think "god, its just stupid RO again" but wen i get to play it with my sisters, its rly wicked.  =3  Of course, its wicked anyway.. Just makes it wickeder.  >.>  Or something.  =D


    My kitties r supar cute~  ^_^;;  Squeak has been following me around lately..  and stuff.  She's adorable.  Sandy is.. well, sandy.  I think she's waiting for me to go to bed atm, so she can too.  XD  Unfortunately, she hasnt been having my bed to herself recently, since my mom has started closing her bedroom door so the cats cant get in her room.  =P  So now squeak and pip and dusty all sleep in my room too (i think squeak used to sleep wif my mom) and sandy isn't too thrilled at that. 


    I tire of ppl telling me "you should sleep"  or "you should eat more".  I dont WANT to eat more, it makes me feel sick.  And i'll sleep when i wanna sleep.  I already have one mother, i dont need 30 more, thank you.


    Been thinking a bit about relationships recently.  Nothing bad, fortunately.  Funny how the thoughts about them are almost always better when im not in one.  XD  Mostly just pondering things, an tryin to work stuff out.  The whole "love" thing, and such.  Nothin big, just tryin to understand how it works.  Maybe I'll ask Jenn sometime, she seems to have a good thing going.  XD


    Meh.. I dunno what else to say.  For some reason, i cant seem to get really far into any topic of conversation right now... Which is why I'd planned to post up PICTURES~~!  =D


    The topic of todays pictures is the comparison of my RO characters to their anime counterparts.  Some are almost bang on, some are obvioulsy not... And any discrepancies in colour are do to a couple things.  Either A) the colour doesnt exist in RO, or B) I have to have at least one pink item on each of my characters, be it their hair or clothing... So i changed lots of the characters colours to pink from whatever they were before, just so i could have that little bit of consistency in my characters. So focus mostly on the hair styles.  XD  An yeah.  Here goes~


    ~Lunaki~
       


    ~Yukino~
       


    ~Rakusu~
       


    ~Rinoah~
       


    ~Milfie~
       


    ~Misuzu~
       


    ~Shaorin~
       


    ~Esther~
       


    ~Subaru~
       


    ~Ryouko~
       


    ~Sakaki~
       


    ~MoonKitten and Kirunai~ 
       


    Last two are just so they're not left out.  XD   That's that. Now for the last part of the entry - monthly update on the characters levels.  =3











    Saturday, January 14 Sunday, February 12 Monday, March 13

    Lunaki - level 99 High Priest *
    Rakusu - level 99 Gypsy *
    Yukino - level 85 Wizard
    Rinoah - level 88 Assassin
    Milfie - level 56 Rogue

    Kirunai - level 85 Crusader
    Misuzu - level 90 Hunter
    Shaorin - level 90 Lord Knight*
    Esther - level 72 Monk
    Subaru - level 70 Creator*

    MoonKitten - level 85 Sage
    Ryouko - level 62 Blacksmith
    Sakaki - level 12 Novice


    Lunaki - level 102 High Priest *
    Rakusu - level 99 Gypsy *
    Yukino - level 88 High Wizard *
    Rinoah - level 90 Assassin
    Milfie - level 70 Rogue

    Kirunai - level 85 Crusader
    Misuzu - level 91 Hunter
    Shaorin - level 96 Lord Knight*
    Esther - level 72 Monk
    Subaru - level 75 Creator*

    MoonKitten - level 96 Sage
    Ryouko - level 62 Blacksmith
    Sakaki - level 64 Super Novice


    Lunaki - level 103 High Priest *
    Rakusu - level 99 Gypsy *
    Yukino - level 100 High Wizard*
    Rinoah - level 95 Assassin Cross*
    Milfie - level 88 Stalker*

    Kirunai - level 73 Paladin*
    Misuzu - level 93 Hunter
    Shaorin - level 97 Lord Knight*
    Esther - level 73 Monk
    Subaru - level 80 Creator*

    MoonKitten - level 75 Professor*
    Ryouko - level 87 Blacksmith
    Sakaki - level 65 Super Novice

  •  "There seems to be an anomaly.."  (23:37)


    I'm posting.. And... What's this?  I'm in a GOOD mood~  OMG!  It's one of those uber rare occurances that I find time to do something when im ina good mood.  XD  Wicked~


    Aren't the sleepy-ing noobs cute?  =3


    MAN~ So many things to say... Lets see.  In the past while.. The bestest things have been happening on saturday nights, i guess.  (well, depends.. on who asks.  XD)  Anyway~ A few saturdays ago, i was spost to go with Jared to this medieval feast thinger to help prep an stuff, that was being done by one of jareds friends parents.. But i was super depressed this day, so i ended up crying in the car and couldn't go in the house.. so i walked to the mall and asked greg to pick me up there.. went back to greg's place and hung out for awhile till we all went out an did something.  That something was - me, Jan, Greg and Noob (Alan) went to play minigolf at the golf dome.  It was wicked.  Because... I cheated~ =D  Sadly, i didnt win, but~ i cheated, so it was more fun.  =3  After that, we played at the driving range.. which was hilarious.  =D  Rapid fire really makes your arms/ribs sore though!  ><


    The Sunday after that, the four of us went to the MTS Center skate thinger for Greg's work (Canadian Tire).  Some sorta fundraiser.  Greg an Jan didnt have skates, so me an noob got out there..I was wearing figure skates from when I was like in grade 6 or something.. OMg... so small an tight~  And Noob wore a pair of my bro's old skates.  Happened to be Noob's first go at skating since he was like.. 6 or something.. So yeah, it went rather smoothly for the most part, till the ice started to get skate bitten and snowy... Then he fell twice.  But i half-caught him the first time (then lifted him back up) then caught him the second time.  So it was less bad than it coulda been.  XD


    saturday after that, we all went to gregs house an had a drinkin party~  Grant was in town, so he picked me up from work and we hung out a bit, then he left, an i had dinner.. then he came an picked me up again, we got jared, and went to WAC for awhile.. I did the usual - nothing - while jared an grant had their fun.  I WAS entertained, though, since i sat and talked to Scott the whole time.  He was playing some FPS online game thinger, but he has the wickedest way of doing it.  XD  After that, we went to gregs to meet everyone (Noob, Jan, Jenn, greg an matt, an a couple of gregs friends) and drank.  I got a bit buzzed, but not drunk, because i was too busy tryin to make sure Noob didnt kill himself.. or me.  =p  he got totally wasted, and was clinging to me the whole nite.. haha  =P  i kno i wasnt drunk cuz i was perfectly able to go on RO and MVP with one of my friends (who isnt so uber that they can solo everythin that comes their way) and we didnt die at all.  If anything, it was noob's fault we almost died cuz he kept resting his head on my hand, or on the mousepad.  XD  We stayed th night at greg's house (only jenn, jan, noob an me) and then did whatever the next day (mostly reading webcomics, and flicking breadtags around.. and had lunch) then i had to go~


    Sunday i hung out with Grant, which was cool.  Didnt' have school monday.  =D  went to Brent's house, and omg.. he has the newest wrestling game thinger, and the character creation is so detailed~ they made one that looked nearly exactly like me~~ it was hilarious!!  XD  after all that, me an grant went to the army base (where he was staying) and played GTA-san andreas for most of the night.  morning, we went for lunch at th mess hall (which has rly good food!) and then i went home, did some homework, an then went to work.  (boo)


    this past saturday was karaoke booth night again~ wit jenn, jan, greg an me!  ^_^  fun stuff, but since greg and jenn already mentioned it.. ill keep it brief.  Jenn won 57 bucks at the casino, and karaoke was fun~  =3


    For the better part of this past two weeks, ive been pretty busy with school, work, and homework.. So i've been playing RO late at night rather than sleeping.  O_o;;  Ther'e a reason for it though~  =3  well, i suppose there is.  XD  i jus got mildly addicted recently cuz i made a new friend!  =D  Jan introduced me to Kai a little while back, but we've been playin tons together lately, an he's rly nice.  ^^  He doesn't seem to sleep much either, so.. when i play wif someone who doesn't sleep, i tend to end up staying up later.  >_<  At least he gets to sleep in more than i do~!  O_O


    An yeah.  Fun times.  =D  even with the immense lack of sleep ive been getting (like.. seriously, all of last week and, it was usually from about 3 till i woke up for school at 7.. then weekend before work was 4-6.. sunday night i went to bed at 4, but slept till 11.  XD  This week hasnt bene much better, but now ive gotten sick so it just seems that much worse.  My lungs hurt when i breathe, and even more when i cough.  >_>  Meh, its' going around unfortunately.  ><  Tonight, i might sleep, though, because im not even on RO.  =P


    Ive also been at my dads house lately.  I'm happy because he seems happier now that im visiting.  my grandparents told me that he was getting upset because he thought i didnt like him or something since i never wana spend time wif him... So it's good to see that he's happier now. 


    But yeahhh.. its midnight~  and i promised someone I'd go to sleep early~  so i shall.  ^_^

  •  "I Hate Winter." (13:13)


    New theme.  I know, usually i make the pic int he background a watermark and nicely shaded into the same colour, but this one had some really nice colour to it so I didnt wanna change it.  It kinda goes with the whole theme this time too, since my header is also the same sorts of colours.. I like em. I like Yggdrasil (the place the screenshot of all my RO characters is taken) since its definitely one of the prettiest (if not THE prettiest) place in the whole game.  I'd like to be able to go to a place like that for real. >_<


    Just in case anyone was curious, or even if you dont give a shit, this is my characters in that picture (in left to right order):
    Misuzu, Hunter
    Milfie, Rogue
    Esther, Monk
    Subaru, Creator
    Rinoah, Assassin
    Kirunai, Crusader
    Sakaki, Super Novice
    Lunaki, High Priest
    Shaorin, Lord Knight
    Yukino-chan, High Wizard
    Ryouko, Blacksmith
    Rakusu, Gypsy
    MoonKitten, Professor


    Since Im in a depressive and not so good mood again, Im gona just talk about complete nonsensical stuff as to keep my mind busy or something.  Just so I dont think too much about other stuff that makes me more depressed (even though i have no idea why Im even depressed to begin with).  Fun, isn't it?  =_=


    Today's topic of discussion is.. Anime and RO!  Whee.  Sounds like something that most people wouldn't care about.  I just feel like talking about characters in anime and why i named my RO characters after them. It really doesn't have that much to do with RO, so if anyone is getting sick of hearing me talk about it, rest assured, it's not ABOUT ro.  It just relates to it a bit.  Good?  Good.  I'll start off at the beginning.  (Since that seems to make the most sense) *grabs some candy and chocolate for the road*


    Lunaki ~ Obviously my first choice in naming *any* girl that I create.  It's the name i inherited from Final Fantasy 8, when I named Rinoa that after brainstorming a bit.  I always like to rename any and all game characters when I can, so that i can make it a bit more personal and such. At the time, it was my first time playing Final Fantasy (other than when i was really young and playing FF1) and Rinoa was the first female character to rename.. So I wanted to give her a good name that I could enjoy having for the rest of the game. I always liked the name Luna, because it reminds me of the moon, and it just sounds really cool.  But i thought it was a bit too unoriginal.  To spice it up a bit, i wanted to add something "Japenese" to it, and i also wanted to have a "K" in it to represent myself.  I also like names that end in "I" so i added the Japanese character "Ki" at the end, thus getting Lunaki.  Cool, eh?  That's the history of the name that I adopted for myself, and still use for everything to this day.  I have an anime character of myself that also shares this name.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Priest)~ Everytime i play videogames wher you can choose your own class (such as Final Fantasy Tactics) my main character would always be a White Mage or healer type. Yes, I know its such a generic "girly" class.. But I've always loved being the "healer" of the group. Even my anime character Lunaki has the Wind element, and Wind elemental skills are often related to healing. (as are water.. but I preferred wind since it also relates to the sky and wings and such..) So i figured, Why change what works?  Thus, Lunaki the Priest was born.


    Yukino-chan ~ Named after Yukino Houjo, from Gatekeepers.  This character has always been the one that signified my solitude, coldness, and lonliness.  She's a loner, afraid to get close to anyone because of her immortality. (Since her friends always die before she does, she's scared to make any friends because she'll have to watch them die again, and again, before her.)  I had to add the "-chan" because the name Yukino seemed to have been taken already.  (*cry*)  I love Yukino, her lonliness and depressing character really touches me.  There's not that many anime characters like her.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Wizard)~ The anime Yukino, is a Gatekeeper. (To understand this, either watch, or look up info on the anime Gatekeepers).  Her gate is that of Ice and Snow, and so of course, the only class suitable for this would be Wizard, since they can cast skills like Storm Gust or Cold Bolt, and the like.  Yukino herself is much like a type of magician, so i figured it would fit.


    Rakusu ~ Named after Rakusu Clyne, from Gundam Seed.  I love Rakusu, and all her morals and teachings.  She is a young girl, the daughter of a very important man in the government.  She is also an idol, a singer whose beautiful voice sings songs of peace and hapiness to calm all those who are being hurt by the wars going on around them.  Although she seems a bit dim-witted and really "in her own world" at first, she shows everyone that she's not that airhead that hopes for peace, but she can back up her words with actions as well.  Her insight and the words she speaks to people contain so much truth and honesty, yet, they're so straight forward, that anyone should know them, they just tend to look past it during the warring times.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Dancer)~ Rakusu is a singer, an idol, in the anime.  The class, Dancer/Gypsy, is as close as it gets to this. (Of course, the male counterpart to this is the Bard, which does the singing..)  I figured it was an almost perfect match to the character from the anime.


    Rinoah ~ Take the "H" off the end of the name, and voila, you have Rinoa, from Final Fantasy 8.  Another reference to the game (Lunaki is a spinoff of this.. Sorta), isn't it obvious that FF8 is one of my favourite games of all time?  Rinoa was always my favourite character, and still is, from any FF game, ever.  She's strong willed, a bit immature, but she stands up for herself, and for her friends.  And her personality and caring nature were what finally brought Squall out of his shell.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Assassin)~ Rinoa isn't really an assassin or ninja by any means. There isn't really any "class" to categorize her into, since her weapon is alot different from anything in RO, and FF8 pretty much left the whole "class" thing behind.  I figured that Katars are probably the closest thing to what Rinoa's weapon was, though. But I guess if you really look into it, her weapon could be considered a really big ninja star.  =P


    Misuzu ~ I had recently finished watching the anime "Air", and Misuzu is one of two main characters in this anime.  She somewhat represents the lighter side of me, the more kiddish side that refuses to grow up, and just wants to play and have fun all the time.  I loved her character, mainly because she's so freaking adorable.  She's like a big child.  Her mentality seems a bit behind for her age, she always wants to play, and she does the strangest things.  She also, though, has a more lonely side to her.  Her parents gave her away when she was young, because she has a "condition" where she can't get too close to people, without having breakdowns.  So she lives with her aunt in a small town, away from the city. Despite her childish nature and playfulness, she also harbours a very deep lonliness, a much darker side to her normally upbeat personality.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Hunter)~ There is only one real way that Misuzu relates to the hunter class at all, but it was what I was going on when I created her - Hunters have birds.  In the anime, Misuzu's only friend, Yukito, gets transformed into a crow.  As soon as this happens, he almost never leaves her side.  The bird that Misuzu has on RO, of course, I've nicknamed it "Yukito". 


    Esther ~ From the anime Trinity Blood, Esther is a orphaned girl, who was taken in by a church, and became a nun. She is a very honourable girl, and sticks up for anyone who she feels is being mistreated.  In the beginning of the anime, before she is found by Abel Nightroad (whom she travels with from then on) she is an assassin, killing those who have wronged her friends and "family".  She has no real "powers", unlike her guardian and friend Abel, but she tries her hardest anyway, to protect anyone close to her.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Monk)~ Esther is a follower of God, a nun of the church.  But she is also a fighter, and refuses to let anyone overpower her.  I thought that the class Monk was perfect for this, since Monks are peoples of the holy order who fight to uphold justice and protect those in need.


    Subaru ~ Named after a character from .Hack//SIGN, Subaru quickly became one of my favourite characters, for a few reasons.  One reason being, that the girl playing as the alias "Subaru" (because for anyone who knows the anime/games, the characters are those in an online game, while the real people behind them are never truly introduced) is a girl who uses the online game "The World" to escape from her reality.  In reality, she is in a wheelchair, and cannot walk, while in The World, she is capable to walk, and move freely about as she wills.  Also, at her young age, she is also a very important person in The World.  She is also a very kind and caring person.  And, she has wings!
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Alchemist)~ Subaru, in the anime, is a Heavy Blade (I think), which means she uses an axe as her weapon.  Merchant class are the class in RO that use this weapon primarily.  Also, Subaru from the anime spends alot of her time in the towns, since she is a leader there of a group. Merchant class characters spend alot of their time in town vending.


    Shaorin ~ Shaorin, a character from Mamotte Shugogetten.  She is a guardian from the moon, who was sealed inside an item that a young boy happens to recieve from his father.  The character Shaorin is a very kind, and giving person, always trying to help, even though she doesn't always understand what's going on (since she hasn't been out in the world since ancient times).  She's really funny in her blunders, and because even though she means well, she doesn't always get it quite right.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Knight)~ Honestly, it doesn't really.  I wanted a character named Shaorin, so i made one.  If i think into it a bit more, I suppose it could relate in some distant ways.  Such as, Knights are there to protect, and that's exactly what Shaorin is: a Guardian.  She protects her "master" from everything, as is the Knight's job.


    Ryouko ~ Named after Ryouko Mitsurugi, from Real Bout High School.  Ryouko is a tomboyish, rough, hot-headed girl who loves to fight.  She strives to be the best fighter, and won't let anyone stand in her way to attaining her goal.  Of course, this does not mean she's ruthless.  On the contrary, she fights to stand up for those who are picked on, and everyone looks up to her as an idol. I love how she's so tough and boyish, and hides her true emotions from everyone in order to seem strong.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Blacksmith)~ If there was a Samurai class, Ryouko would be it.  But since there isn't, i wanted to make her one of the most powerhouse classes in the game - Blacksmith.  Once this class makes it to their transcendant class (whitesmith) they're one force to be reckoned with.  They don't have much in the way of fancy magic skills, its just all power.


    Sakaki ~ Named after the tall quiet girl from Azumanga Daioh, Sakaki-san.  Sakaki was the character that intrigued me the most in watching this anime - she is a taller girl, looks intimidating, she is strong both mentally and physically, and she has many admirers both male and female.  Lots of people who don't know her seem to be intimidated by her, although, she is not a violent or agressive person by any means.  She is very soft spoken (when she speaks at all) and has an (almost unhealthy) obsession with cats.  (Yay kitties  =3) 
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Super Novice)~ If you've seen the anime, you'd know exactly how Sakaki relates to this class.  The anime is nothing special.  There is no magic powers, no super fight scenes, nobody is a hero, nothing extraordinary happens.  It's about girls going through their school years.  Normal girls.  And that's exactly what the Super Novice class is.. Nothing special.. Just a normal novice...  But it's got those hidden features that make it so appealing. 


    Milfie ~ Milfie is a character from Galaxy Angel, which... Well, to say the least, I don't watch the anime.  (It sucks)  The manga, on the other hand, is amazing. Milfie is a high spirited girl with extremely good luck, and a keen liking (and skill) for baking.  I love baking cakes, cookies, candies and desserts, and this is the main reason why Milfie appealed to me so much.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Rogue)~  Maybe someone who knows Milfie can help me on this one... Because I haven't the first idea how it does.  I'm tryin to think up something here, but I can't.  This sorta happens to be another case of the "I wanted a character by this name.... And so I just made her this class" deals.  Maybe I'll think of something sometime, but for now, Milfie is just a Rogue.. Because she is.


    MoonKitten ~ An original name (obviously) that I chose for simple reasons.  I like the moon and the night sky, and I like cats.  Plain, straightforward, and simple.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Sage)~ Iuno.  Maybe sages like to be named after things in the sky.  Anything with "Moon" in it could be a good magicians name, i think.  So there, that's my reasons.  =P


    Kirunai ~ Another original name, this time, with no history to it.  I just wanted a Japanese sounding name that started with a "K", so this is what I came up with.  I kinda like it and may possibly use it again. I've used a variation of this name in the past with other videogames, so this is just a spinoff of that.
    How it relates to the RO class ~(Crusader)~ Once again... Just because I said so. 


    And now that I've either lost all of the readers somewhere in the boring explanations in the middle.. Or put them to sleep... Or something... I think I'll quit now.. And go read some manga or something.  =_=

  •  "And thus the worst day of the year is upon us" (2:09)


    O I always get depressed around this time of the year. And the 17th is the worst day ever.  Of course, not for everyone.  And its not that far off some of the other worst days of the year, such as my birthday, which is statistically proven to be the most depressing day of the year in the northern hemisphere.. And i know i feel the effects of that one.  =P  But yeah, Feb 17th is aka the day me and jon broke up like.. two years ago?  or something.  Holy shit was it that long ago?  XD  I sound so pathetic. 


    All ive been thinking about of late is how things "used" to be.  Back when I was hugely into FS, getting right in there with everyone, meeting all the new people.. It was around this same wintery time (January 16th i believe) that I joined FS. Met Jon, and Colin, Clud, Walter, Aaron, Oniisan, Lisa, and all the other good friends, some of whom i still talk to regularly.. Some of whom I wish i still did.. And the rest that I would like to talk to again sometime. 


    So, Jan 16 is the day i met people.  Feb17 is the day we broke up, and the whole end of january is the time i spent in Cali....


    I think about the fun times i spent posting, chatting, and basically living on my computer. Kinda sad, but it was so much fun for me.  I loved it. I really miss alot of that stuff.


    Alot of the stuff i remember, of course, ad to do with me an Jon though.  Like the first conversations, and how long we'd talk all night. Then we talked on the phone.. all night.. XD  *sigh*


    Obviosuly we cant go back to the past, and we cant continue to live in the past..  But as stupid as it sounds, i have a hard time controlling when my brain decides to do flashback on me.  -_-


    I might add later.. its late (early) an im falling asleep as i type this.


    DAMN YOU TO HELL WINTER MONTHS!!  DIEEEEEE

  •  "Communication.. Or lack thereof" (1:05)


    I've been burying myself into things, again.  I tend to do this when i get depressed.  Before, it was things like Gunbound, tons upon tons of anime, FS, and other such things.  Now, it's RO.  I played Ro all week, every free moment, till at least 2 or 3 in the morning, when i had to get up at 6 to go to school.  I didnt get all that much done, either, just sat alot, talking with people, mostly.  It's people I dont really know, so I can spend the time talking to them. When i get depressed, i tend to want to avoid the people that im supposed to be closer with.  Just a built in mechanism of mine.  One of many.  The kind that people (particularly my friends) dont really like.


    I don't call people when i get upset, even when i really feel the need to talk to someone. Like tonight, for example.  I started thinking randomly about how badly i miss the kind of talks i used to have with people.  In particular, Jon.  I loved how i felt, that no matter what, I'd always have someone to talk to.  Not that I didnt talk to other people, and have equally as good conversations at times.  It's just that he was always there for me to talk to, and i felt like he was.  (you know, that whole "love" thing)  Im not tryin to make any of my friends feel inadequate, or less worthy or.. whatever.. but right now, when i tried to think of any one person that i could talk to right now, just to say that im feeling like shit, and that i needed to talk to someone.. I went through a list of about.. maybe 7 people, and ther was always a reason why i wouldnt talk to them.  Mostly, because I'd have to call them to get ahold of them, and im not really into that whole talking thing.. I wanted to chat on MSN.. Im more comfortable with it.  How else could i cry at the same time and not have to sniffle into the ear of the person at the other end of the line?


    Anyway, its not a big deal on their part.  They're good friends.  I'm the bad one.  -_-


    I wish i could just erase parts of my memory so that I wouldnt have to think about certain things that have happened, and maybe i'd be a bit more normal.  Im sick of people always saying "its in your head, you can control it, and you dont need drugs to fix this because all you need to do is work on your will power" and blah blah blah.  As if I DONT know that, and havent been TRYING.  Piss off with your stupid reasoning, because when i get depressed, thats one of the fucking most annoying things echoing through my mind.  "You suck because you give into this stupid depression and cant control it.  Way to go, idiot"  Im WORKING on it.  It aint that easy, how about u fucking try it sometime?  And to anyone who does deal with this kinda shit.. Then good for you. STFU.  KTHXBYE.


    And on that note.. Just because I feel like it, here's an update on my RO status.. And also, a look back on what levels they were about.. uhh.. WEll almost a month ago. 













    Saturday, January 14 Sunday, February 12
     

    Lunaki - level 99 High Priest *
    Rakusu - level 99 Gypsy *
    Yukino - level 85 Wizard
    Rinoah - level 88 Assassin
    Milfie - level 56 Rogue

    Kirunai - level 85 Crusader
    Misuzu - level 90 Hunter
    Shaorin - level 90 Lord Knight*
    Esther - level 72 Monk
    Subaru - level 70 Creator*

    MoonKitten - level 85 Sage
    Ryouko - level 62 Blacksmith
    Sakaki - level 12 Novice

     

    Lunaki - level 102 High Priest *
    Rakusu - level 99 Gypsy *
    Yukino - level 88 High Wizard *
    Rinoah - level 90 Assassin
    Milfie - level 70 Rogue

    Kirunai - level 85 Crusader
    Misuzu - level 91 Hunter
    Shaorin - level 96 Lord Knight*
    Esther - level 72 Monk
    Subaru - level 75 Creator*

    MoonKitten - level 96 Sage
    Ryouko - level 62 Blacksmith
    Sakaki - level 64 Super Novice

  •  "Meh" (21:20)


    Im sick, and tired, and not feeling good, and im depressive again.. Stuff is kinda lame. =_=   I should just go to sleep or smthin but whatever.


    Not quite sure exacly what's buggin me now, but i was out with jared an i got depressed again. I hate that. Just walking and sitting in silence the whole time, not really wanting to be around anyone or anything. And of course, remembering things, because i tend to do that alot. I wish i didnt get depressed, because i think about it, and i cant really see a reason TO be depressed, but i cant get happy. I guess its not so much that Im sad or upset or anything, its just a complete lack of happy.. Or something like that.  Whatever.


    Today was pretty good, till the end. Went on a field trip of sorts for school, out to the New Bothwell cheese factory thinger, which is about an hour or so from where i live. Then we went on a tour of a coffee place, and then we had a stupid test which i did halfassed shitty on. Got a 79, which is kinda gay, but whatever. The class is boring as all hell anyway, so whatever.  As long as I pass, im happy.  Although, id rather it not drag down my GPA.  >_>


    I really really need to get out of here for a bit. I wish i could do what Jenn is doing now, and just take off for a week. The only problem with that, well, problem(s) with that, is, one, I can't miss any school, so i have no choice but to stay here. Two, i have nowhere to go. Three.. I have no money with which to get there.  Whee... Im in a winning situation.  Heh.


    I'm thinking that maybe if i can figure out some way of working it out, i can get my second work co-op out of the country. Maybe in Italy or something, because that would be wicked.  I have a really good friend on RO that is from Rome, now the only thing is.. He needs to know someone who works for/owns a restaurant and is a red seal chef.  Fat chance of that happening...  But i can always dream, can't i?


    I like hearing the stories of all the chefs, how much they've gone through, and how many places they've travelled.  Every one of them has been to at least ONE overseas place.  Whether it was India, France, Italy, or New Zealand... It all sounds so wicked.  If i wanted to travel, it seems i picked the right profession.  Of course, this makes it really hard for one to maintain any good relationships (that are mor than friendship) but hey, that seems to work pretty good for me too, now, doesnt it?

  •  "Wow, look at the time! ->"  (2:20 AM!!)


    I don't know why it's such a big deal.. Other than the fact that I'm an idiot.  O_o  I should have been asleep about 2 hours and 20 minutes ago... Since starting this restaurant cooking class in school, it's been kickin my ass almost as hard as it kicks Jared's ass.  Cept i havent gotten sick yet, mainly because im used to not sleeping and running myself down pretty hard.  XD  I just get a bit more cranky than usual, but im about my usual self, if yu ignore that i fall asleep MUCH more easily now.  XD


    Why am I up this late?  Well, i can give you a few good reasons.. Well, maybe not GOOD, but they're ok.  First off, I worked till 11.  That almost always guarantees a late night. Second, I had to work on my home work.  Third, I played a tiny bit of RO.  A tiny bit being less than an hour. After that, i was on MSn with Chad and Jonny for awhile, and I shipped emails off to Mark and Grant. And now that I think about it I think i owe a few other people some emails....  Looks like its gonna be an even later night.  XD  After that, I came on Xanga, read some ppls, left some comments, and then came back to my page to think up something to type in here in honour of having been up so late (just like old times... *sniff*)  Not that i have very fond memories of some of those "old times"   XD 


    Ive been thinking alot lately.  One thing, there could be a reason i always get super depressed on my birthday.  it's statistically the most depressing day of the year (in the northern hemisphere).  I believe that.  XD  I was born on depression day, so that might also explain why I suck so much.  >.>  lol.


    Other things i was thinking about, mostly relationship junk.. For a few reasons.  I got asked out again, by someone else.. And now things have been akward between us in class, which kinda sucks.  He promises things will go back to normal eventually, though, which is cool, because he was always fun to mess around with during class, we'd always insult each other an stuff. He might also start hanging out with me and my friends sometimes too, which is cool.  Another added to our group.  =D   I rule at bringing ppl together.   =P


    But yeah, the list grows once more, so many people have asked me out.  If they dont watch it, my ego might GROOOOOW to the size of JUPITER!!  =D  (somehow i dunno about tat one tho)  But yah, having to explain over and over why i dont want to go out with them is getting a bit old.  =P  I dont want a relationship because..... Im still not over being hurt a long while back, and every relationship ive had since then hasnt gone so well, and its' always my fault because i cant stick with it..  Or cant even really get into it.  I dont even feel that "love" thing anymore.  So what's the point?  O_o  Waiting on it is my best bet, and im sure that people would agree.  =3  (well, some might not.. but their opinion DOESNT RATE!! BWAHAHAHA)


    I dont want to call attention to anyone or directly insult anyone on here, cuz that's mean..  But ive been having some probs with certain ppl lately..  >_<  There's this one ex of mine who keeeeeps begging me to go out with him again.  >_>  I just cant.  I mean, I know it hurts to love someone so much then have them not be there anymore.  Ive been through that, i know what it's like, and i know what happens when u get depressed and want to die, and cry all the time, cut myself, hole myself up in my room alone.. and stuff.  I did all that shit, and it was gay.  But u know, it DOES pass.  Look at me now  O_o  I have tons of friends and im way happier *although not 100%, but honestly, who ever is?* so im proof that you can go from the lowest pit of despair back up to something WAAAAY better.  Even if you think at the time "its not possible" and "Ill never get over it", you will.  I thought those things too.  ^_^  Maybe not completely, because there's always a part of you.... But yeahh.


    And on that note.. I dunno, there ARE a couple people that have asked me out that i would consider going out with.  They're really nice, and make me laugh, but even then, I dont know if i want to rely too much on anyone.  Another reason being... I dont know if i could really bring myself to "care" enough about the whole thing.  If i don't "love" the person, the relationship wouldnt get very far, im thinking.  I might not care if we broke up or not, and then I'd just end up hurting someone again.  And we dont' want that... not again.  It's good to know my options, though... XD  But i strongly suggest that if anything else comes along, go for it, cuz waiting for me is so totally not soemthing i'd recommend.  =P


    Anyway, i have better things to do than type shit about stuff nobody cares about.  XP  Ill be off to get those emails done now.  >.>