March 5, 2010

• So, generally speaking..

  

  Yeah, that’s my cat.    And my bubble tea.  I heart bubble tea.  <3 <3 <3

  If you don’t really care to be bored and aren’t interested in listening… or reading.. me talking about myself, then skip down to the next horizontal rule.  ;P  At the place where it says “start here” more specifically.. xD

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  So my brain was being a wanker at work today.  It gets on a certain train of thought, and there’s little i can do to stop it. >__>  It’s horrendous.

  Though i can (sometimes) figure out a lot of things.  Or a lot about one thing… Depends i guess.  I suppose since I’m so right-brained, evaluating people and emotions is something that just comes to me.   But it often makes me play self-psychiatrist.. Or psychologist.. Or whatever the fuck the difference is.  Don’t care.  Doesn’t change the points. 

  Today’s thought train (choo-choo)  lead from one thing to another, back to the first thing.. And in the end I realized a couple things.  One, I can be a totally unreasonable person.  CAN be.  For myself to deal with, especially.  Anyway, generally speaking, I suppose this refers mostly to the fact that when I’m annoyed with the person I’m going out with, my reaction is always the same, and now that i’ve figured out the general root of the issue, it’ll probably help in stopping it.   What do I do?  I basically act like a jerk I suppose.  I call them names, or just be stubborn and spiteful.  Nothing horrible.  Matter of fact, it’s often taken as more of a joke by whoever, because they don’t really get it.  o_o 

  I’m not passive aggressive.  I’m aggressive aggressive, in a passive way.    Makes no sense that way.. Hmm..  Well whatever, rather than saying straight up what I think… I become a jerk until i’m satisfied that the issue has gone away.. Of course, until it comes back or happens again.. haaha.. Thus fixing nothing.

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  I really wonder if anyone bothers to read these… I mean, I know it says my last post was viewed 7 times, but 7… could have been the same person refreshing the page a few times, not many comments left.. I wonder how I could get people to pay attention to my page?  Maybe if i offer tits they’ll read it?  xD  Not mine, of course.

  I had the most aewsome dream last night, not so awesome as you’d think.. Cuz I always ALWAYS have those dreams people generally consider to be awesome, things with flying, being a superhero, being in really awesome places, etc etc… No, this time it was a simple dream.  But I WON THE FUCKING LOTTERY!  It was strange, and very very realistic.  My place even looked pretty much the same as it does now. Except that one of the couches was where the other would be. Nothing significant. So it felt real. And I woke up this time… KNOWING it was a dream, not having to figure it out in minutes of confusion.    Another perk. 

  But yeah.  100 million was the lottery I won.  Hell.. Lotteries around here don’t even GET that big.. But damn, I wish. I really do.. xD  I’d even settle for a small prize.  80k would be nice.  Just to pay off my place… if I didn’t have mortgage payments, i’d have so much extra money!  *sigh*

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